I'm Not Letting Go


As I sit down to write this blog entry I am in the throes of tech week for Nazareth High School’s Spring Musical, Honk!  For those of you unfamiliar with the theatre term “tech week”, allow me to try and explain:  sleep deprivation, high stress, light/sound/scene change cues all at the same time and multiple times in a 2 hour period, sickness due to sleep deprivation and high stress, terrible eating habits (both in food and at what time the food is being consumed), and lots of aggravation.  With Easter being the weekend before this year’s show, I started “teching” last week knowing I would lose Friday and Saturday prior to opening on April 10.  After our first night of tech and feeling extremely down on myself as a director, I called my mom and simply said, “Please just remind me that it all miraculously comes together in the end somehow.”  And she did just that – she reminded me that every single show I have ever been in or directed has miraculously come together at the last minute. 

Funny, I feel like that’s sometimes how God works in my life.  I’ll be going along through something wondering where God is in this mess and then all of a sudden He shows up and simply says, “Why did you doubt me?  You knew I’d come in and take care of you!”  I once had someone say to me, “the devil must know God has something big planned for you.”  I quizzically looked at them and they responded, “Why else would he be trying to make your life so difficult right now?  The devil is trying to break you down so your faith falters – hang in there, God’s got something big!”  I stand on that quite often, along with Isaiah 41:11-13 (Message):

Count on it: Everyone who had it in for you

    will end up out in the cold—

    real losers.

Those who worked against you

    will end up empty-handed—

    nothing to show for their lives.

When you go out looking for your old adversaries

    you won’t find them—

Not a trace of your old enemies,

    not even a memory.

That’s right. Because I, your God,

    have a firm grip on you and I’m not letting go.

I’m telling you, ‘Don’t panic.

    I’m right here to help you.’

It’s the very end of that verse that brings me peace - Because I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I’m not letting go. I’m telling you, ‘Don’t panic.  I’m right here to help you.’

I don’t know who you are or even why you chose to read this bog, as this exact time, on this exact day.  But I do know without a shadow of a doubt that God is alive and real, died for you and for me, and is YOUR strength!  When your life turns into a tech week, remember that God is always hanging on to you.  The question becomes – are you holding on to Him?

Beth Peters-Ferrara has been a member at FPCB since November of 2008.  She has been active in the Youth Ministry, the Emotional Wellness Team and the Confession Team for the Oasis Contemporary Services.  Beth spends her time outside of church at PA Youth Theatre as the Outreach Coordinator, Monocacy Counseling Associates as a Therapist, Dryland UCC as the Director of Youth Ministry, Nazareth High School as the Theatre Director, and in her spare time is working on her dissertation for her doctorate degree in Pastoral Counseling.  Beth is married to Shawn and they have three children, Lydia, Brandon and Carter.